Wednesday, December 22, 2010
New Art Curriculum See The Light Free Giveaway at Christmas
I haven't posted for awhile but if you haven't seen this new art curriculum that teaches the meaning of Christmas and about salvation, Check it out.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Continuing Lessons in Trust - Put It In Neutral and Coast With God as Your Co-Pilot
It's been an interesting 24 hrs here at the house.
My husband woke me up yesterday to tell me his car wouldn't start and he was taking my van to work.
Last night, when he got home, he tinkered with it and then determined we needed to get the car to the mechanic.
However, there's a problem, Money is tight right now and we don't have towing on our insurance.
My husband assured me it was no problem. He'd simply put the car in neutral, have me steer and he'd push me all the way to mechanic using my van, bumper to bumper.
I didn't think that was a good idea.
Well, needless to say, I got up this morning praying, " Lord let that car start. Let it just be out of gas. Maybe it was just the battery. Lord, I don't want to do this."
We weren't out of gas and it wasn't the battery.
So here we go, I'm behind the wheel. The car's in neutral and my husband is pushing me along bumper to bumper, and it did feel much like bumper cars.
We left the four children at home eating breakfast and I prayed all the way, " Lord help us do this. Please keep us safe. Please get us back home to our children."
We don't live far from the mechanic, but we do have to cross two major highways between here and there.
I was scared. I didn't think we could do it.
Proverbs 3: 4-5 says, " Trust the Lord with your own heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and he will direct your paths." (NIV)
That's exactly what I did, behind that steering wheel this morning, every bit of me acknowledge HIM.
As we pulled into the parking lot at the garage, I started laughing and then I started crying.
" Thank you Lord, for continually telling me to Trust You."
We've been so much.
I realized something else this morning. As healing continues, I'm praying again. There was time when I had stopped praying. The hurt and the grief just overtook me. But as the Healing Begins, I find myself praying more and more
I Thessalonians 5:17 says, "Pray Without Ceasing." (NIV)
Phillippians 4:6-7 says, " Don't worry about anything, but in everything, through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God. And the peace of God,which surpasses every thought,will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (NIV)
I'm learning. God is always my co-pilot. He is always here. I just need to put it in neutral and coast with God.
In His love,
Amy
My husband woke me up yesterday to tell me his car wouldn't start and he was taking my van to work.
Last night, when he got home, he tinkered with it and then determined we needed to get the car to the mechanic.
However, there's a problem, Money is tight right now and we don't have towing on our insurance.
My husband assured me it was no problem. He'd simply put the car in neutral, have me steer and he'd push me all the way to mechanic using my van, bumper to bumper.
I didn't think that was a good idea.
Well, needless to say, I got up this morning praying, " Lord let that car start. Let it just be out of gas. Maybe it was just the battery. Lord, I don't want to do this."
We weren't out of gas and it wasn't the battery.
So here we go, I'm behind the wheel. The car's in neutral and my husband is pushing me along bumper to bumper, and it did feel much like bumper cars.
We left the four children at home eating breakfast and I prayed all the way, " Lord help us do this. Please keep us safe. Please get us back home to our children."
We don't live far from the mechanic, but we do have to cross two major highways between here and there.
I was scared. I didn't think we could do it.
Proverbs 3: 4-5 says, " Trust the Lord with your own heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and he will direct your paths." (NIV)
That's exactly what I did, behind that steering wheel this morning, every bit of me acknowledge HIM.
As we pulled into the parking lot at the garage, I started laughing and then I started crying.
" Thank you Lord, for continually telling me to Trust You."
We've been so much.
I realized something else this morning. As healing continues, I'm praying again. There was time when I had stopped praying. The hurt and the grief just overtook me. But as the Healing Begins, I find myself praying more and more
I Thessalonians 5:17 says, "Pray Without Ceasing." (NIV)
Phillippians 4:6-7 says, " Don't worry about anything, but in everything, through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God. And the peace of God,which surpasses every thought,will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." (NIV)
I'm learning. God is always my co-pilot. He is always here. I just need to put it in neutral and coast with God.
In His love,
Amy
Friday, July 23, 2010
The Healing Begins Inspiration From Tenth Avenue North's Newest Song
This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you're broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark
Not a day goes by that I don't think about the two babies we lost in the past 12 months,
Hope (8-09-09), Grace (2-13-10)
Yes, I have 4 beautiful, smart and talented children that encircle me with love.
I am so grateful to God for the blessing of my family.
I hold dear to the verse in scripture
Jeremiah 29:11 For I Know The Plans I Have For You.
I am convinced that God has Big Plans for my life.
It is so obvious, if you are looking for it.
on my personal writings homepage
http://sites.google.com/site/amywingfieldwritings/home
there's a journal titled Dad's Story.
It started out as a tribute to my dad after his death in May 1999,
but continued as my own personal journal and bio as I wrote through my own life experiences
covering so much of what God had done and was continuing to do in my life.
Everything I have experienced, seen, heard or felt, in some way or another, God has used to help others
There are so many things I wish I could just erase from my bio, things I wish I hadn't gone through,
but I know, as I hope you do, that these tests through life only cause us to be stronger and more equipped to do what God has planned for us next.
The Apostle Paul says in Hebrews 13:20-21 (NIV)
20May the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, 21equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.
and James goes on to say in James 1:2-5 (NIV)
2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.
As much as I would have preferred not to have gone through these tests and trials, I have, and God had a reason behind it all or allowed it all to happen so that He could get the glory from it.
When I started this blog almost two years ago, (originally Called To Be Momma), this Faith Journey was a joy to share. I was passionate about sharing what God was showing me through my Faith Journey.
I loved sharing all of it, the thoughts, the scriptures, the songs......
it was a joy to share from my heart to yours with the hope that somehow God would work through me to bless others.
Take a look back at some my original posts in 2008 and 2009. I had something to say and I said it. It was fun and exciting!
I love getting your feedback.
Let me know you are reading and what you think.
A writer needs that feedback.
Many of my local friends and associates here didn't understand that I just wanted somebody to listen and comment back.
As time went by and more and more occurred....
well, after a while I just felt like nobody cared.
No one cares what I think.
No one wants to read..........
This is a waste of time.
The Joy left. I left.
But you know what, it wasn't a waste of time.
As I look back over those original posts, and as I consider all the events that have taken place, all the tests and trials..... and the events yet to come,
God will get the Glory from All of It
and it is worth sharing
and if it is meant for someone special,
God will lay it upon that person's heart to read and hopefully be blessed.
I'm coming back.
I'm back.
This is where the healing begins.
Day by Day, it's getting better,
and I'm beginning to feel like me again.
It has been such a long year.
I will never forget Hope & Grace,
but I know God loves me.
He knows the desires of my heart.
He knows me.
None of this was meant to hurt me but to strengthen me and prepare me for whatever God has for me next. This story will continue.
May we all be blessed as we travel
this Faith Journey together.
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you're broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark
Not a day goes by that I don't think about the two babies we lost in the past 12 months,
Hope (8-09-09), Grace (2-13-10)
Yes, I have 4 beautiful, smart and talented children that encircle me with love.
I am so grateful to God for the blessing of my family.
I hold dear to the verse in scripture
Jeremiah 29:11 For I Know The Plans I Have For You.
I am convinced that God has Big Plans for my life.
It is so obvious, if you are looking for it.
on my personal writings homepage
http://sites.google.com/site/amywingfieldwritings/home
there's a journal titled Dad's Story.
It started out as a tribute to my dad after his death in May 1999,
but continued as my own personal journal and bio as I wrote through my own life experiences
covering so much of what God had done and was continuing to do in my life.
Everything I have experienced, seen, heard or felt, in some way or another, God has used to help others
There are so many things I wish I could just erase from my bio, things I wish I hadn't gone through,
but I know, as I hope you do, that these tests through life only cause us to be stronger and more equipped to do what God has planned for us next.
The Apostle Paul says in Hebrews 13:20-21 (NIV)
20May the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, 21equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.
and James goes on to say in James 1:2-5 (NIV)
2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.
As much as I would have preferred not to have gone through these tests and trials, I have, and God had a reason behind it all or allowed it all to happen so that He could get the glory from it.
When I started this blog almost two years ago, (originally Called To Be Momma), this Faith Journey was a joy to share. I was passionate about sharing what God was showing me through my Faith Journey.
I loved sharing all of it, the thoughts, the scriptures, the songs......
it was a joy to share from my heart to yours with the hope that somehow God would work through me to bless others.
Take a look back at some my original posts in 2008 and 2009. I had something to say and I said it. It was fun and exciting!
I love getting your feedback.
Let me know you are reading and what you think.
A writer needs that feedback.
Many of my local friends and associates here didn't understand that I just wanted somebody to listen and comment back.
As time went by and more and more occurred....
well, after a while I just felt like nobody cared.
No one cares what I think.
No one wants to read..........
This is a waste of time.
The Joy left. I left.
But you know what, it wasn't a waste of time.
As I look back over those original posts, and as I consider all the events that have taken place, all the tests and trials..... and the events yet to come,
God will get the Glory from All of It
and it is worth sharing
and if it is meant for someone special,
God will lay it upon that person's heart to read and hopefully be blessed.
I'm coming back.
I'm back.
This is where the healing begins.
Day by Day, it's getting better,
and I'm beginning to feel like me again.
It has been such a long year.
I will never forget Hope & Grace,
but I know God loves me.
He knows the desires of my heart.
He knows me.
None of this was meant to hurt me but to strengthen me and prepare me for whatever God has for me next. This story will continue.
May we all be blessed as we travel
this Faith Journey together.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Clomid Treatments Are Working
Last Friday I got a phone call from the doctor. After 3 months, the Clomid treatments are working. I was beginning to give up. We've gone through so much this past year, should I just quit trying. Yet, the test results say otherwise.
We started in early May with 25 mg of Clomid.
My progesterone levels were only at an 11 on max days, some days it was as low as -1.
It's rare, but unless those progesterone levels are 17 or higher, the body is probably not ovulating and conception will not occur.
The end of May, we went up to 50 mg of Clomid.
The Progesterone only went up to a 12. Still not enough.
In Late June, we increased the dose to 100 mg.
Last Friday, my test results came in ..... 18!
Needless to say I was excited!
It's working!!!!!!!
Could I be pregnant? Maybe
Is it possible? Yes, it's possible.
Is the wait hard? You bet.
But, I'm O.K.
I know I'm getting well, and I know that if it is meant for me to conceive and carry another child to full term, I will.
May God get the Glory.
Whatever he wants.
I'll keep you posted.
Amy
We started in early May with 25 mg of Clomid.
My progesterone levels were only at an 11 on max days, some days it was as low as -1.
It's rare, but unless those progesterone levels are 17 or higher, the body is probably not ovulating and conception will not occur.
The end of May, we went up to 50 mg of Clomid.
The Progesterone only went up to a 12. Still not enough.
In Late June, we increased the dose to 100 mg.
Last Friday, my test results came in ..... 18!
Needless to say I was excited!
It's working!!!!!!!
Could I be pregnant? Maybe
Is it possible? Yes, it's possible.
Is the wait hard? You bet.
But, I'm O.K.
I know I'm getting well, and I know that if it is meant for me to conceive and carry another child to full term, I will.
May God get the Glory.
Whatever he wants.
I'll keep you posted.
Amy
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Today was Picture Day for us
It's been an interesting week,
We are on vacation this week
This time, last Sat, we had arrived at Canyon Lake, Texas at the Silverleaf Hill Country Resort.
The kids swam, we watched about a dozen deer play in the fields below us,
Enjoyed a great movie and Mexican food
On Sunday, we spent the day at SeaWorld of San Antonio
We rested at the resort on Monday and headed to Plano, Texas on Tuesday to spend the day at Amazing Jake's.
Wed/Thurs/Fri have been recoop days, I'm tired.
Today, we had church directory pictures for our new church.
I'm always a bit stressed on picture day, the bigger our family gets, the harder it is to get a good picture, but we did manage a few good ones.
I've spent a lot of time thinking about what I want to do as a side business....... I really want to do something I will enjoy
I'm thinking of taking up photography, not right away, too much going on right now with raising the kids, managing the house and the Clomid treatments...
but when it's possible, I'd like to learn how to take good quality digital photos of my own and then maybe go into business later on.
I would enjoy that.
I like capturing the moment of things in pictures and in stories.
My walls are lined with photos in my house, just not ones I've taken.
We'll see what comes of it later on.
Right now, I just need to take one day at a time and enjoy what I have.
Until later,
AW
We are on vacation this week
This time, last Sat, we had arrived at Canyon Lake, Texas at the Silverleaf Hill Country Resort.
The kids swam, we watched about a dozen deer play in the fields below us,
Enjoyed a great movie and Mexican food
On Sunday, we spent the day at SeaWorld of San Antonio
We rested at the resort on Monday and headed to Plano, Texas on Tuesday to spend the day at Amazing Jake's.
Wed/Thurs/Fri have been recoop days, I'm tired.
Today, we had church directory pictures for our new church.
I'm always a bit stressed on picture day, the bigger our family gets, the harder it is to get a good picture, but we did manage a few good ones.
I've spent a lot of time thinking about what I want to do as a side business....... I really want to do something I will enjoy
I'm thinking of taking up photography, not right away, too much going on right now with raising the kids, managing the house and the Clomid treatments...
but when it's possible, I'd like to learn how to take good quality digital photos of my own and then maybe go into business later on.
I would enjoy that.
I like capturing the moment of things in pictures and in stories.
My walls are lined with photos in my house, just not ones I've taken.
We'll see what comes of it later on.
Right now, I just need to take one day at a time and enjoy what I have.
Until later,
AW
Friday, May 28, 2010
Clomid Treatments, Can Anyone Else Relate? Share your Story
Hello everyone,
Ok, in the last 4 months, I've been a little quiet.
After the miscarriage, Feb 13, 2010, I just pulled away from everyone and everything.
I was angry.
It wasn't fair and it shouldn't have happened.
those that have followed my stories throughout this blog know that this was my second miscarriage in 6 months.
The first one was caused by my lack of knowledge, I needed progesterone, was taking it, but didn't know I should have kept using it after I got pregnant.
The day I got a positive pregnancy tests, I quit using it thinking I was protecting my baby.
We lost Baby Hope August 10, 2009, at 9 weeks
I got pregnant again using progesterone cream in December 2009. This time my doctor prescribed Prometrium, a progesterone supplement to help prevent a miscarriage.
We had a very healthy baby this time. It had a strong heartbeat and would run from the doppler.
At 10 weeks gestation, the doctor told me it was safe to come off the Prometrium....... it wasn't,
We tragically lost Baby Grace Feb 13, 2010 at 12 weeks.
I went through a dark time. Why God why? What do you want from me?
There's been quite a few changes for me over the last 4 months.
I spent a lot of time walking and asking God what he wanted. I didn't have anybody else to talk to.
Nobody understood why a mother of 4 wanted more children, but God does.
This mother of 4, me, I am and always will be Called To Be Momma. That's me, Momma, and I love my job.
I'm proud of it.
I embrace it.
I can't think of anything else I'd rather do.
One way or another, I'm always going to be Momma, taking care of others.
OK, so in the last 4 months, I changed doctors, God has brought a wonderful new doctor into my life who has helped me sort through things. She listened. She ran all the tests and she did finally diagnosed the problem, extremely low progesterone. Normal is 15-17. Mine hasn't gotten above 12 yet. Something happened after Michael's birth, maybe it's God telling me no more, or maybe it's just something that needs to be corrected. I don't know, we wait and see.
But I'd like to have more children, if it is God's will.
I started 25mg of Clomid last month, Progesterone rose from 11 in April to 12 in May, still not enough.
Today, I start Round 2, Clomid 50mg, hopefully this will work.
Clomid treatments work like this. Each month, you are given 5 tablets to take days 5-10 of your cycle.
You know what to do Days 10-21.
On Day 21 the lab does Progesterone test and you wait a week to see if you're pregnant.
If that Progesterone test at 3 weeks shows too low of a level of Progesterone, next month you go to a higher dose and each month the process repeats itself up to 150mg of Clomid.
If at 150mg, I'm not pregnant and the progesterone levels are not rising....... well, I'll have to face the facts.
There are other things I could try, but you know...... I do realize I've been blessed with 4 beautiful children.
My husband and I have been through the fires of birth control or no birth control, quiverfull or not, vasectomy and reversal. God knows what we want and what we need.
I've learned this over the years through all the trials.
God loves me.
He knows my heart's desires.
I still Trust in Him
If it's meant to be, it will be
and if not, well, life is still good, I have my beautiful Lisa, Ariel, Amelia and Michael.
I'm only 38 and God still has so much more planned for me.
It's all going to be OK
So reply back, share your stories, whatever is on your heart, share with us.
I want this to be a place where we can all share in the Faith Journey.
In His Love,
AW
Ok, in the last 4 months, I've been a little quiet.
After the miscarriage, Feb 13, 2010, I just pulled away from everyone and everything.
I was angry.
It wasn't fair and it shouldn't have happened.
those that have followed my stories throughout this blog know that this was my second miscarriage in 6 months.
The first one was caused by my lack of knowledge, I needed progesterone, was taking it, but didn't know I should have kept using it after I got pregnant.
The day I got a positive pregnancy tests, I quit using it thinking I was protecting my baby.
We lost Baby Hope August 10, 2009, at 9 weeks
I got pregnant again using progesterone cream in December 2009. This time my doctor prescribed Prometrium, a progesterone supplement to help prevent a miscarriage.
We had a very healthy baby this time. It had a strong heartbeat and would run from the doppler.
At 10 weeks gestation, the doctor told me it was safe to come off the Prometrium....... it wasn't,
We tragically lost Baby Grace Feb 13, 2010 at 12 weeks.
I went through a dark time. Why God why? What do you want from me?
There's been quite a few changes for me over the last 4 months.
I spent a lot of time walking and asking God what he wanted. I didn't have anybody else to talk to.
Nobody understood why a mother of 4 wanted more children, but God does.
This mother of 4, me, I am and always will be Called To Be Momma. That's me, Momma, and I love my job.
I'm proud of it.
I embrace it.
I can't think of anything else I'd rather do.
One way or another, I'm always going to be Momma, taking care of others.
OK, so in the last 4 months, I changed doctors, God has brought a wonderful new doctor into my life who has helped me sort through things. She listened. She ran all the tests and she did finally diagnosed the problem, extremely low progesterone. Normal is 15-17. Mine hasn't gotten above 12 yet. Something happened after Michael's birth, maybe it's God telling me no more, or maybe it's just something that needs to be corrected. I don't know, we wait and see.
But I'd like to have more children, if it is God's will.
I started 25mg of Clomid last month, Progesterone rose from 11 in April to 12 in May, still not enough.
Today, I start Round 2, Clomid 50mg, hopefully this will work.
Clomid treatments work like this. Each month, you are given 5 tablets to take days 5-10 of your cycle.
You know what to do Days 10-21.
On Day 21 the lab does Progesterone test and you wait a week to see if you're pregnant.
If that Progesterone test at 3 weeks shows too low of a level of Progesterone, next month you go to a higher dose and each month the process repeats itself up to 150mg of Clomid.
If at 150mg, I'm not pregnant and the progesterone levels are not rising....... well, I'll have to face the facts.
There are other things I could try, but you know...... I do realize I've been blessed with 4 beautiful children.
My husband and I have been through the fires of birth control or no birth control, quiverfull or not, vasectomy and reversal. God knows what we want and what we need.
I've learned this over the years through all the trials.
God loves me.
He knows my heart's desires.
I still Trust in Him
If it's meant to be, it will be
and if not, well, life is still good, I have my beautiful Lisa, Ariel, Amelia and Michael.
I'm only 38 and God still has so much more planned for me.
It's all going to be OK
So reply back, share your stories, whatever is on your heart, share with us.
I want this to be a place where we can all share in the Faith Journey.
In His Love,
AW
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
To Speak Your Mind or Keep MUM - Choose To Be A Blessing For Life
Have you ever studied your geneology?
With St. Patrick's Day coming up tomorrow, I thought it would be fun to share this little tidbit with all of you.
I have often been described as head strong, a fighter, independent..............
Well, let's see.......
My maiden name is Williamson - We were Irish horse thieves back in Ireland... (yep, head strong.)
There's also a bit of Scotish on that side too. (the fighter).
On Dad's side is Cherokee Indian and on Mom's side is French and Blackfoot Indian (independent)
So yes, I can very well be described as head strong, a fighter and independent - and I'm proud of it!
Problems arise though when faced with confrontation....... How to handle it?
The red headed Scotch-Irish in me says to "pounce on them and give them what for!"
The Cherokee and the Blackfoot.......... sometimes I feel like scalping them!
and the French side me - It just tells it like it is, period.
But as a Christian........ Jesus wants me to handle things quite differently, and it's not always easy, in fact it's down right hard.
In Luke 6:29, Jesus says, "If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic."
Turn the other cheek.
Forgive and keep mum.
"But God, I've got red hair........ let me at 'em!"
Sometimes it takes everything I got to turn around and walk away. But I'm learning.......
There's an old song made popular by Twila Paris and Gary Velenciano called "Warrior Is A Child."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SYn_NqkHSS0
The lyrics say....
With St. Patrick's Day coming up tomorrow, I thought it would be fun to share this little tidbit with all of you.
I have often been described as head strong, a fighter, independent..............
Well, let's see.......
My maiden name is Williamson - We were Irish horse thieves back in Ireland... (yep, head strong.)
There's also a bit of Scotish on that side too. (the fighter).
On Dad's side is Cherokee Indian and on Mom's side is French and Blackfoot Indian (independent)
So yes, I can very well be described as head strong, a fighter and independent - and I'm proud of it!
Problems arise though when faced with confrontation....... How to handle it?
The red headed Scotch-Irish in me says to "pounce on them and give them what for!"
The Cherokee and the Blackfoot.......... sometimes I feel like scalping them!
and the French side me - It just tells it like it is, period.
But as a Christian........ Jesus wants me to handle things quite differently, and it's not always easy, in fact it's down right hard.
In Luke 6:29, Jesus says, "If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic."
Turn the other cheek.
Forgive and keep mum.
"But God, I've got red hair........ let me at 'em!"
Sometimes it takes everything I got to turn around and walk away. But I'm learning.......
There's an old song made popular by Twila Paris and Gary Velenciano called "Warrior Is A Child."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SYn_NqkHSS0
The lyrics say....
"They don't know that I come running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
Cause deep inside this armor
The warrior is a child"
It's comforting to know God is always with me.
Whenever I need to, I climb into His arms and cry for just awhile.
This warrior is yet but still a child.
So how do we handle conflict God's way?
Choose to be a blessing for life!
John Waller does a song called "The Blessing."
I heard this song early last Saturday morning, and God has used that along with Mark Schultz's "He Is" to remind me all week,
" I'm still here. I'm still in control. I got this. Just do your thing and watch and wait."
" I'm still here. I'm still in control. I got this. Just do your thing and watch and wait."
Mark Schultz's song says, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1dElIkD3hU
"Father, let the world just fade away
Let me feel your presence in this place
Lord, I’ve never been so weary
How I need to know you’re near me
Father, let the world just fade away
Till I’m on my knees
Till my heart can sing
He is
He was
He always will be
Even when it feels like there is no one holding me
Be still, my soul
He is"
and then he reminds me.... when I'm face to face with those people who have chosen to speak their minds, when I'm hurt and want to lash back......
CHOOSE TO BE A BLESSING FOR LIFE!
Remembering what's really important....... Love, Family, Heritage, Legacy.
I choose to be a blessing for life.
They can't hurt me anymore.
I hold my head high and remember what we were taught: We love each other. We may not be perfect, but we've had some great role models in our heritage to teach us how to love: God, fathers, mothers, grand-parents. To all the ones who have gone on before us, they left us with their lessons and their legacy....... what legacy will we leave behind?
Walk away from confrontation, keep mum.....smile.....be at peace with God......
and choose to be a blessing for life!
The Blessing by John Waller/Mark Hall
"Let it be said of us while we walked among the living
Let it be said of us by the ones we leave behind
Let it be said of us that we lived to be a blessing for life
And let it be said of us that we gave to reach the dying
Let it be said of us by the fruit we leave behind
Let it be said of us that our legacy is blessing for life
This day, You set life, You set death right before us
This day, every blessing and curse is a choice now
And we will choose to be a blessing for life
Let it be said of us that our hearts belong to Jesus
Let it be said of us that we spoke the words of life
Let is be said of us that our heritage is blessing for life
'Cause blessings and curses are choices
Will we build up, tear down? The moment of truth is now
For your kingdom, for our children
For the sake of every nation
For your kingdom, for our children
For the sake of every nation
We will choose to be a blessing for life"
Saturday, March 13, 2010
These Are The Words I Would Say
It's been an interesting week.
Many, many changes going on in my life.
It seems like God is shutting doors on one side of my life, and opening doors on a completely new side......
And, you know what? It's ok. It feels good.
Change is good.
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28
It's been a month today....... our lives changed forever, one month ago today...... but it's going to be ok.
Exodus 15:2
The LORD is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation. He is my God, and I will praise him, my father's God, and I will exalt him."
Where others have failed us, where needs were not met, where we can not comprehend and where others misunderstand......... God is here, He loves us and He meets our needs.
God, thank you for meeting my needs.
Psalms 28:6-7 "Praise be to the LORD, for he has heard my cry for mercy.
The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped.
My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song."
A month ago, I laid on a gurney in the ER and wondered what God wanted from me.
I didn't understand. I still don't, but God is good.
Jeremiah 29:11-14a For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "
Changes needed to be made, and sometimes, there not easy.... but sometimes we find life is better on the otherside. God knew what was needed.
It wasn't until I felt I had nothing else to give......... that I gave it all,
and He picked me up
and filled me with love,
Thank you Lord for healing me.
Thank you Lord for direction.
Thank you Lord for Hope.
I leave you tonight with the lyrics and sounds of Sidewalk Prophets new song
These Are The Words I Would Say - it has become my inspirational theme song.
Click to listen, you'll understand. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=thLdWPr32yY&feature=related
Until tomorrow,
Many, many changes going on in my life.
It seems like God is shutting doors on one side of my life, and opening doors on a completely new side......
And, you know what? It's ok. It feels good.
Change is good.
"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28
It's been a month today....... our lives changed forever, one month ago today...... but it's going to be ok.
Exodus 15:2
The LORD is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation. He is my God, and I will praise him, my father's God, and I will exalt him."
Where others have failed us, where needs were not met, where we can not comprehend and where others misunderstand......... God is here, He loves us and He meets our needs.
God, thank you for meeting my needs.
Psalms 28:6-7 "Praise be to the LORD, for he has heard my cry for mercy.
The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped.
My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song."
A month ago, I laid on a gurney in the ER and wondered what God wanted from me.
I didn't understand. I still don't, but God is good.
Jeremiah 29:11-14a For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "
Changes needed to be made, and sometimes, there not easy.... but sometimes we find life is better on the otherside. God knew what was needed.
It wasn't until I felt I had nothing else to give......... that I gave it all,
and He picked me up
and filled me with love,
Thank you Lord for healing me.
Thank you Lord for direction.
Thank you Lord for Hope.
I leave you tonight with the lyrics and sounds of Sidewalk Prophets new song
These Are The Words I Would Say - it has become my inspirational theme song.
Click to listen, you'll understand. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=thLdWPr32yY&feature=related
Until tomorrow,
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Quiet Time - Wake up with God telling you He Loves You
As my journey continues, I find the closer I pull toward God, the more He talks to me.
Now on a regular basis, God will send a little message through song just for me. I love that. It's so comforting.
Yesterday was a rough day. I know you've had those days. Full speed ahead and nothing seems to be going right. That was my Wednesday, and it carried over right into my Thursday. I've had very little sleep, and I long to put on my headphones and go do 3 miles. ( I will, but I wanted to share with you first.).
When I got up this morning, God instantly placed these lyrics in my head......
Now on a regular basis, God will send a little message through song just for me. I love that. It's so comforting.
Yesterday was a rough day. I know you've had those days. Full speed ahead and nothing seems to be going right. That was my Wednesday, and it carried over right into my Thursday. I've had very little sleep, and I long to put on my headphones and go do 3 miles. ( I will, but I wanted to share with you first.).
When I got up this morning, God instantly placed these lyrics in my head......
(David Crowder Band - He Loves Us)
"Oh how He loves us,
Oh, oh how He loves us,
how He loves us,
how He loves us all. "
This song has become kind of a security blanket for me, an instant hug from God. I know I shared it with you a couple of days ago.
God is here. God is always here. " And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." (from Matthew 28:20)
God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." Hebrews 13:5
This song How He Loves Us, the lyrics start by saying.
"He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me. "
so the next time the world seems to be gaining up on you, or even just a few people in your world...... step away from it all, go to quiet place, and know He loves you..... and it's all going to be o.k.
Until next time.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Sunday - A Day of Rest - Very Much Needed
Ever wonder why God told to Jewish nation to rotate the fields, let the fields rest ever 7 years?
Everything and everyone needs rest, we can't keep going full speed ahead.
The whole reason God has instituted the Sabbath and commands us to keep it Holy is for two fold, one we need to rest, and two we really need to remember what's most important in life, beyond all things, our relationship with God should be the most cherished and important thing in our lives. A day of rest allows us to slow down and focus on that.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28 (NIV)
Let's face it. We all go 90 to nothing 24/7, and there are times when no one is going to understand us and we are so tired and so frustrated and so overwhelmed, we don't know which way to go.
Don't let yourself get to that point. Take the day of rest. Lay it all down at His feet, climb into His arms and let Him hold you.
He loves you. Don't ever forget that, above all, He loves you.
Song Today - Oh How He Loves Us - by David Crowder
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TWgeUrD4MHI
Until tomorrow,
Everything and everyone needs rest, we can't keep going full speed ahead.
The whole reason God has instituted the Sabbath and commands us to keep it Holy is for two fold, one we need to rest, and two we really need to remember what's most important in life, beyond all things, our relationship with God should be the most cherished and important thing in our lives. A day of rest allows us to slow down and focus on that.
"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28 (NIV)
Let's face it. We all go 90 to nothing 24/7, and there are times when no one is going to understand us and we are so tired and so frustrated and so overwhelmed, we don't know which way to go.
Don't let yourself get to that point. Take the day of rest. Lay it all down at His feet, climb into His arms and let Him hold you.
He loves you. Don't ever forget that, above all, He loves you.
Song Today - Oh How He Loves Us - by David Crowder
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TWgeUrD4MHI
Until tomorrow,
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Give Me Your Eyes For Just One Second - What's It Going To Take To Get People To Reach Out and Help Others?
I spent a day out shopping today with my 9yr old daughter today.
It was a special time for us.
We enjoy listening to music, looking for great bargains, and share a special treat together.
On our way home, my daughter saw a group of homeless men on the side of the road and commented that there was a lot of homeless people in the world.............
We had a long discussion on the way home.
As I travel on this journey, my heart is filled with passion and emotion that I just don't know how to clearly express. Tears come easier than words these days.
"God of wonders, beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy"
This passion and this desire I feel to share the message of God's love continually grows.
There are so many people who need to know there is HOPE, there is HELP, there is LOVE and there is PEACE and it is all found in personal relationship with Jesus Christ.
Do you feel the need to share Christ with others?
Bloom where you are planted.
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. " Jeremiah 29:11-13
God has special plans for each and every one of us.
What He has planned for me, He may not have planned for you, and that's OK.
Not everyone was meant to be a foreign missionary, an evangelist, a pastor or a teacher.
Some of us are just meant to be ordinary people, going about our everyday lives........ and through those everyday lives God will open up doors of opportunity to make a difference for His glory.
Are your eyes open to the possibilities?
"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!' Matthew 25:21
Take joy in the little things God has set aside for you: your homelife, spouse, children, your work and your friends. As you find peace and contentment in these daily things, don't be surprised if God begins to reveal more of the world around you. The more you share, the more you feel, the more you give, joy and peace will increase.
I'll close with this tonight, Paul said in Ephesians 1:17-18 "I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. 18 I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints."
Dear Lord,
Give me your eyes for just one second. May I continue to see this world and the people in it in a whole new way. (Listen to Brandon Heath's Give Me Your Eyes http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P5AkNqLuVgY )
Keep walking this Faith Journey with me.
Until tomorrow,
It was a special time for us.
We enjoy listening to music, looking for great bargains, and share a special treat together.
On our way home, my daughter saw a group of homeless men on the side of the road and commented that there was a lot of homeless people in the world.............
We had a long discussion on the way home.
As I travel on this journey, my heart is filled with passion and emotion that I just don't know how to clearly express. Tears come easier than words these days.
"God of wonders, beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy
The universe declares Your majesty
You are holy, holy"
This passion and this desire I feel to share the message of God's love continually grows.
There are so many people who need to know there is HOPE, there is HELP, there is LOVE and there is PEACE and it is all found in personal relationship with Jesus Christ.
Do you feel the need to share Christ with others?
Bloom where you are planted.
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. " Jeremiah 29:11-13
God has special plans for each and every one of us.
What He has planned for me, He may not have planned for you, and that's OK.
Not everyone was meant to be a foreign missionary, an evangelist, a pastor or a teacher.
Some of us are just meant to be ordinary people, going about our everyday lives........ and through those everyday lives God will open up doors of opportunity to make a difference for His glory.
Are your eyes open to the possibilities?
"His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!' Matthew 25:21
Take joy in the little things God has set aside for you: your homelife, spouse, children, your work and your friends. As you find peace and contentment in these daily things, don't be surprised if God begins to reveal more of the world around you. The more you share, the more you feel, the more you give, joy and peace will increase.
I'll close with this tonight, Paul said in Ephesians 1:17-18 "I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. 18 I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints."
Dear Lord,
Give me your eyes for just one second. May I continue to see this world and the people in it in a whole new way. (Listen to Brandon Heath's Give Me Your Eyes http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P5AkNqLuVgY )
Keep walking this Faith Journey with me.
Until tomorrow,
Friday, March 5, 2010
TGIF - Thanking God I'm Free!
Ok, so I know it's cheesy, but it is Friday
and for most of you, you are thinking TGIF - Thank Goodness It's Friday!
But for me this has been an interesting week, and I'm just basking in the SON.
On Monday, the doctor gave me a clean bill of health,
On Tuesday, I turned 38 years old, and received a brand new portable CD/FM player from my husband,
and two brand new CDs from my mom
Casting Crowns Until The Whole World Hears
and Wow Hits 2010.
A little over two weeks ago, I began walking as a means to regain my strength and deal with my emotions.
It has now become an anticipated daily 3-6 mile quiet time between me and God,
I love it! I feel so good! so Free!
Our neighborhood is a little circle sub-division, and every circle I make is about .5 miles, but the best part is most of our neighborhood is still empty lots, (we just built in March 2009),
most of my neighbors fall into two categories: working or elderly
so basically 9-5P M-F my neighborhood is very, very quiet,
For about an hour, (sometimes twice a day), you can find me walking to the beat of the music, sometimes fast, sometimes slow, sometimes hands raised in worship, sometimes head raised high toward the tops of the trees in awe of God's wonder and power and love.......for me!!
How good God is to us.
" For God so loved the world, that He gave His one and only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life." John 3:16
When I was 14 years old, I went to a Super Summer Camp at Wayland Baptist University in Plainview, Texas. the theme that year was Free Indeed - "So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed." John 8:36
I feel free!
I have been through so much these past 6-7 months, maybe you have too,
that I am just enjoying the peace and the freedom that comes from giving it all to God.
I'm leaving you today with the Newsboys - song entitled " I am Free!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nR7bBEBIC9g
This weekend, I encourage you, grab your favorite Christian Cds or Christian radio, go outside!!!!
Enjoy being free in God's great big beautiful world!
Enjoy a picnic, dig in your yard, go for walk, or just start running!!!!!!!
Bask in the light of the SON!
Until tomorrow,
and for most of you, you are thinking TGIF - Thank Goodness It's Friday!
But for me this has been an interesting week, and I'm just basking in the SON.
On Monday, the doctor gave me a clean bill of health,
On Tuesday, I turned 38 years old, and received a brand new portable CD/FM player from my husband,
and two brand new CDs from my mom
Casting Crowns Until The Whole World Hears
and Wow Hits 2010.
A little over two weeks ago, I began walking as a means to regain my strength and deal with my emotions.
It has now become an anticipated daily 3-6 mile quiet time between me and God,
I love it! I feel so good! so Free!
Our neighborhood is a little circle sub-division, and every circle I make is about .5 miles, but the best part is most of our neighborhood is still empty lots, (we just built in March 2009),
most of my neighbors fall into two categories: working or elderly
so basically 9-5P M-F my neighborhood is very, very quiet,
For about an hour, (sometimes twice a day), you can find me walking to the beat of the music, sometimes fast, sometimes slow, sometimes hands raised in worship, sometimes head raised high toward the tops of the trees in awe of God's wonder and power and love.......for me!!
How good God is to us.
" For God so loved the world, that He gave His one and only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life." John 3:16
When I was 14 years old, I went to a Super Summer Camp at Wayland Baptist University in Plainview, Texas. the theme that year was Free Indeed - "So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed." John 8:36
I feel free!
I have been through so much these past 6-7 months, maybe you have too,
that I am just enjoying the peace and the freedom that comes from giving it all to God.
I'm leaving you today with the Newsboys - song entitled " I am Free!"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nR7bBEBIC9g
This weekend, I encourage you, grab your favorite Christian Cds or Christian radio, go outside!!!!
Enjoy being free in God's great big beautiful world!
Enjoy a picnic, dig in your yard, go for walk, or just start running!!!!!!!
Bask in the light of the SON!
Until tomorrow,
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Living By Faith - My God Shall Supply All My Needs
As I travel this journey, I'm in awe of the little ways God speaks to my heart.
Each day, as part of their schoolwork, my children review their AWANA assignments for the next week. This week, my 6 year old daughter was asked to find a book or a picture about a missionary who lived long ago before she was born. She will take this book with her on Wednessday and show it to her leader.
This was an easy assignment. On our school shelf this week is a copy of George Muller's biography. For those of you who may not know, George Muller is a man who lived by FAITH and prayer alone. Back in the 1800's, he started up an orphanage with no money and no resources. He depended solely on God to supply all his needs. George Muller read his Bible and prayed everyday, knowing in his heart that whatever they needed, it would be provided.
As I shared this story with my daughter, I was reminded of a song I was taught when I was 12 years old.
It's amazing what sticks in your heart, years later as a constant reminder of God's love.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zYlac9kB37k&feature=related (this is a faster version than I was taught, my own version is more of a Praise & Worship style, slow & meaningful, but you'll get the idea.)
Jehovah Jireh My Provider
His Grace Is Sufficient For Me, For Me For Me
Jehovah Jireh My Provider
His Grace Is Sufficient For Me
My God Shall Supply All My Needs
According To His Riches and Glory
He'll Give His Angels Charge Over Me
Jehovah Jireh Cares For Me.
So here I was singing this to my little ones at the kitchen table,
and explaining to them how God supplies all our needs........
and I couldn't get through it all without tearing up.
How great is our God that we can lay it all down at His feet and know that He will provide all that we need.
Trust The Lord With All Your Heart
And Lean Not On Your Own Understanding
In All Your Ways Acknowledge Him
And He Will Direct Your Paths
Proverbs 3:4-5
Until tomorrow,
Each day, as part of their schoolwork, my children review their AWANA assignments for the next week. This week, my 6 year old daughter was asked to find a book or a picture about a missionary who lived long ago before she was born. She will take this book with her on Wednessday and show it to her leader.
This was an easy assignment. On our school shelf this week is a copy of George Muller's biography. For those of you who may not know, George Muller is a man who lived by FAITH and prayer alone. Back in the 1800's, he started up an orphanage with no money and no resources. He depended solely on God to supply all his needs. George Muller read his Bible and prayed everyday, knowing in his heart that whatever they needed, it would be provided.
As I shared this story with my daughter, I was reminded of a song I was taught when I was 12 years old.
It's amazing what sticks in your heart, years later as a constant reminder of God's love.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zYlac9kB37k&feature=related (this is a faster version than I was taught, my own version is more of a Praise & Worship style, slow & meaningful, but you'll get the idea.)
Jehovah Jireh My Provider
His Grace Is Sufficient For Me, For Me For Me
Jehovah Jireh My Provider
His Grace Is Sufficient For Me
My God Shall Supply All My Needs
According To His Riches and Glory
He'll Give His Angels Charge Over Me
Jehovah Jireh Cares For Me.
So here I was singing this to my little ones at the kitchen table,
and explaining to them how God supplies all our needs........
and I couldn't get through it all without tearing up.
How great is our God that we can lay it all down at His feet and know that He will provide all that we need.
Trust The Lord With All Your Heart
And Lean Not On Your Own Understanding
In All Your Ways Acknowledge Him
And He Will Direct Your Paths
Proverbs 3:4-5
Until tomorrow,
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
I'm back, changing the name of this blog to Faith Journey
Hello all,
I know several of you tracked me down over the past two weeks, after I deleted this blog.
We lost our little one, at 12 weeks of pregnancy on Feb 13, 2010, and basically no one knows why but God.
I didn't think I'd write anymore, definitely not as Called To Be Momma, I figured the door was closing, it was over, but if you surrender it all into God's hands........ he brings healing and sometimes answers to prayers.
After much soul searching, tears, frustrations and prayers, my husband has decided to rest in God's hands.
We walk hand in hand on this FAITH journey with God and whatever comes, comes.
I told friends here
My husband and I are continuing to walk hand in hand with God on this
journey and know God loves us and He takes care of us.
What is the song in my head today?
"Lead me to the Cross" by Hillsong,
I'm posting the Praise & Worship video with lyrics for you here
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d_24IdbJ0Tw
This whole journey these past two weeks, everything that has happened and all that we see, hear and experience, This is a major FAITH journey for me.... I am not the same
person I was before Feb 13th. I feel God's arms around me, I sense his
refining, I see his efforts in changing my heart, my perspective, how
I see others, how I view life. I pray we never go through another
miscarriage again, but I know that through all the trials and journeys
that we walk through with God, he is just strengthening us so in all
we are reminded to God be the glory.
That's it. This life, it is a FAITH JOURNEY.
I'd be honored if you'd like to continue following with me,
Walking with God,
Surrending it all,
Amy Wingfield
I know several of you tracked me down over the past two weeks, after I deleted this blog.
We lost our little one, at 12 weeks of pregnancy on Feb 13, 2010, and basically no one knows why but God.
I didn't think I'd write anymore, definitely not as Called To Be Momma, I figured the door was closing, it was over, but if you surrender it all into God's hands........ he brings healing and sometimes answers to prayers.
After much soul searching, tears, frustrations and prayers, my husband has decided to rest in God's hands.
We walk hand in hand on this FAITH journey with God and whatever comes, comes.
I told friends here
My husband and I are continuing to walk hand in hand with God on this
journey and know God loves us and He takes care of us.
What is the song in my head today?
"Lead me to the Cross" by Hillsong,
I'm posting the Praise & Worship video with lyrics for you here
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d_24IdbJ0Tw
This whole journey these past two weeks, everything that has happened and all that we see, hear and experience, This is a major FAITH journey for me.... I am not the same
person I was before Feb 13th. I feel God's arms around me, I sense his
refining, I see his efforts in changing my heart, my perspective, how
I see others, how I view life. I pray we never go through another
miscarriage again, but I know that through all the trials and journeys
that we walk through with God, he is just strengthening us so in all
we are reminded to God be the glory.
That's it. This life, it is a FAITH JOURNEY.
I'd be honored if you'd like to continue following with me,
Walking with God,
Surrending it all,
Amy Wingfield
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Happy Valentines Day. God Loves You
Hello everyone.
It's been quite a while since I posted,
but my heart is so overwhelmed with God's pressence in my life, I must share.
Many of you know, the miscarriage we suffered in August was due to low progesterone.
I knew my body was lacking somethings that were preventing me from ovulation.
I took Vitex, vitamins, was eating healthy and using progesterone cream when I conceived in July.
I did not know that if you are using progesterone and conceive, you must continue using it throughout pregnancy until the body begins producing it on its own sometime during 2nd Trimester.
If you stop progesterone abruptly, the body thinks it is time for a menstrul cycle, pregnant or not.
Once I got pregnant, I thought all was well. I stopped using the progesterone. I was pregnant!
I didn't know. It's a mistake I will live with rest of my life.
From August to October, I struggled. I had ovarian cysts, pains, problems. My cycles were going short again. After the October cycle, I decided to try it all one more time. I didn't want to give up without a fight.
Once again: Vitex, B-complex, Calicium/Magnesium/Zinc, Iron, Folic Acid and a Prenatal.
Once again, I was eating yams and spinach, watching my weight and exercising.
Once again, I began the progesterone cream...........
We conceived in December. I'm due August 30, 2010.
My doctor put me on Prometrium ( Progesterone supplements).
The first 9 weeks were awful. I was so sick.
The Prometrium makes me sick and sleepy.
My oldest daughter, Lisa (age 12), would put me to bed every day at 1P, watch the little ones and let me sleep for two hours until it wore off.
We told no one about this. My husband knew, of course, but no one else was told.
We took every day one at a time.
At 8 weeks, I began spotting and hurting. I thought we were losing this one too,
but a sonogram showed a perfectly healthy 8 week baby with a strong heartbeat.
I had torn a place in the bottom of my uterus.
Almost two weeks later, at my first official OB checkup, I figured he was going to tell me I had ovarian cysts, or PCOS or worse..............
Instead, he did another sonogram and we listened to that strong little heartbeat once again.
He said, "Your ovaries are clear. You are producing progesterone on your own. You're fine, everything looks good. You can come off the Prometrium, trust me."
I didn't really take it all in until I was on my way home, and the full effect of his words sunk in.
I'm healed.
I'm completely healed.
Oh my goodness.
Dear Lord, what are you doing?
The overwhelming feeling of God's pressence, I cried all the way home.
No more pain, no more bleeding, no cysts, no problems,
A healthy baby, a strong heartbeat, a healed body.
I thought the door was closing on me. I thought I was going through pre-menopause.
Now here I am having a baby, and this may be my last or this may not be, only God knows.
God knows.
God is in control.
God is here.
God loves me.
God is love.
"I have loved you with an everlasting love." Jeremiah 33:3 (NIV)
Oh, how could we ever doubt God is real.
I do not understand why he has chosen to bless me with this priviledge. This sweet gift of motherhood, but I am so grateful, so thankful. I feel so blessed and priviledged to received this miracle of healthy baby and a whole and well body.
In all, Give God the Glory.
Happy Valentines's Day.
God loves you.
Amy
It's been quite a while since I posted,
but my heart is so overwhelmed with God's pressence in my life, I must share.
Many of you know, the miscarriage we suffered in August was due to low progesterone.
I knew my body was lacking somethings that were preventing me from ovulation.
I took Vitex, vitamins, was eating healthy and using progesterone cream when I conceived in July.
I did not know that if you are using progesterone and conceive, you must continue using it throughout pregnancy until the body begins producing it on its own sometime during 2nd Trimester.
If you stop progesterone abruptly, the body thinks it is time for a menstrul cycle, pregnant or not.
Once I got pregnant, I thought all was well. I stopped using the progesterone. I was pregnant!
I didn't know. It's a mistake I will live with rest of my life.
From August to October, I struggled. I had ovarian cysts, pains, problems. My cycles were going short again. After the October cycle, I decided to try it all one more time. I didn't want to give up without a fight.
Once again: Vitex, B-complex, Calicium/Magnesium/Zinc, Iron, Folic Acid and a Prenatal.
Once again, I was eating yams and spinach, watching my weight and exercising.
Once again, I began the progesterone cream...........
We conceived in December. I'm due August 30, 2010.
My doctor put me on Prometrium ( Progesterone supplements).
The first 9 weeks were awful. I was so sick.
The Prometrium makes me sick and sleepy.
My oldest daughter, Lisa (age 12), would put me to bed every day at 1P, watch the little ones and let me sleep for two hours until it wore off.
We told no one about this. My husband knew, of course, but no one else was told.
We took every day one at a time.
At 8 weeks, I began spotting and hurting. I thought we were losing this one too,
but a sonogram showed a perfectly healthy 8 week baby with a strong heartbeat.
I had torn a place in the bottom of my uterus.
Almost two weeks later, at my first official OB checkup, I figured he was going to tell me I had ovarian cysts, or PCOS or worse..............
Instead, he did another sonogram and we listened to that strong little heartbeat once again.
He said, "Your ovaries are clear. You are producing progesterone on your own. You're fine, everything looks good. You can come off the Prometrium, trust me."
I didn't really take it all in until I was on my way home, and the full effect of his words sunk in.
I'm healed.
I'm completely healed.
Oh my goodness.
Dear Lord, what are you doing?
The overwhelming feeling of God's pressence, I cried all the way home.
No more pain, no more bleeding, no cysts, no problems,
A healthy baby, a strong heartbeat, a healed body.
I thought the door was closing on me. I thought I was going through pre-menopause.
Now here I am having a baby, and this may be my last or this may not be, only God knows.
God knows.
God is in control.
God is here.
God loves me.
God is love.
"I have loved you with an everlasting love." Jeremiah 33:3 (NIV)
Oh, how could we ever doubt God is real.
I do not understand why he has chosen to bless me with this priviledge. This sweet gift of motherhood, but I am so grateful, so thankful. I feel so blessed and priviledged to received this miracle of healthy baby and a whole and well body.
In all, Give God the Glory.
Happy Valentines's Day.
God loves you.
Amy
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