The Healing Begins Inspiration From Tenth Avenue North's Newest Song

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you're broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark 


Not a day goes by that I don't think about the two babies we lost in the past 12 months,
Hope (8-09-09), Grace (2-13-10)


Yes, I have 4 beautiful, smart and talented children that encircle me with love.
I am so grateful to God for the blessing of my family.


I hold dear to the verse in scripture 
Jeremiah 29:11 For I Know The Plans I Have For You.


I am convinced that God has Big Plans for my life.
It is so obvious, if you are looking for it.
on my personal writings homepage 
http://sites.google.com/site/amywingfieldwritings/home
there's a journal titled Dad's Story.


It started out as a tribute to my dad after his death in May 1999, 
but continued as my own personal journal and bio as I wrote through my own life experiences 
covering so much of what God had done and was continuing to do in my life.


Everything I have experienced, seen, heard or felt, in some way or another, God has used to help others
There are so many things I wish I could just erase from my bio, things I wish I hadn't gone through, 
but I know, as I hope you do, that these tests through life only cause us to be stronger and more equipped to do what God has planned for us next.


The Apostle Paul says in Hebrews 13:20-21 (NIV)
 ²⁰May the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, ²¹equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.


and James goes on to say in James 1:2-5 (NIV)
²Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, ³because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. ⁴Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. ⁵If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 


As much as I would have preferred not to have gone through these tests and trials, I have, and God had a reason behind it all or allowed it all to happen so that He could get the glory from it.


When I started this blog almost two years ago, (originally Called To Be Momma), this Faith Journey was a joy to share. I was passionate about sharing what God was showing me through my Faith Journey.
I loved sharing all of it, the thoughts, the scriptures, the songs......
it was a joy to share from my heart to yours with the hope that somehow God would work through me to bless others.


Take a look back at some my original posts in 2008 and 2009. I had something to say and I said it. It was fun and exciting!
I love getting your feedback.
Let me know you are reading and what you think.
A writer needs that feedback.


Many of my local friends and associates here didn't understand that I just wanted somebody to listen and comment back.
As time went by and more and more occurred....
well, after a while I just felt like nobody cared.


No one cares what I think.
No one wants to read..........
This is a waste of time.
The Joy left. I left.


But you know what, it wasn't a waste of time.
As I look back over those original posts, and as I consider all the events that have taken place, all the tests and trials..... and the events yet to come,
God will get the Glory from All of It
and it is worth sharing
and if it is meant for someone special,
God will lay it upon that person's heart to read and hopefully be blessed.


I'm coming back.
I'm back.
This is where the healing begins.
Day by Day, it's getting better,
and I'm beginning to feel like me again.


It has been such a long year.
I will never forget Hope & Grace,
but I know God loves me.
He knows the desires of my heart.
He knows me.


None of this was meant to hurt me but to strengthen me and prepare me for whatever God has for me next. This story will continue.


May we all be blessed as we travel
this Faith Journey together.

Clomid Treatments Are Working

Last Friday I got a phone call from the doctor. After 3 months, the Clomid treatments are working. I was beginning to give up. We've gone through so much this past year, should I just quit trying. Yet, the test results say otherwise.
We started in early May with 25 mg of Clomid.
My progesterone levels were only at an 11 on max days, some days it was as low as -1.
It's rare, but unless those progesterone levels are 17 or higher, the body is probably not ovulating and conception will not occur.
The end of May, we went up to 50 mg of Clomid.
The Progesterone only went up to a 12. Still not enough.
In Late June, we increased the dose to 100 mg.
Last Friday, my test results came in ..... 18!
Needless to say I was excited!
It's working!!!!!!!
Could I be pregnant? Maybe
Is it possible? Yes, it's possible.
Is the wait hard? You bet.
But, I'm O.K.
I know I'm getting well, and I know that if it is meant for me to conceive and carry another child to full term, I will.
May God get the Glory.
Whatever he wants.
I'll keep you posted.
Amy