Hello everyone.
It's been quite a while since I posted,
but my heart is so overwhelmed with God's pressence in my life, I must share.
Many of you know, the miscarriage we suffered in August was due to low progesterone.
I knew my body was lacking somethings that were preventing me from ovulation.
I took Vitex, vitamins, was eating healthy and using progesterone cream when I conceived in July.
I did not know that if you are using progesterone and conceive, you must continue using it throughout pregnancy until the body begins producing it on its own sometime during 2nd Trimester.
If you stop progesterone abruptly, the body thinks it is time for a menstrul cycle, pregnant or not.
Once I got pregnant, I thought all was well. I stopped using the progesterone. I was pregnant!
I didn't know. It's a mistake I will live with rest of my life.
From August to October, I struggled. I had ovarian cysts, pains, problems. My cycles were going short again. After the October cycle, I decided to try it all one more time. I didn't want to give up without a fight.
Once again: Vitex, B-complex, Calicium/Magnesium/Zinc, Iron, Folic Acid and a Prenatal.
Once again, I was eating yams and spinach, watching my weight and exercising.
Once again, I began the progesterone cream...........
We conceived in December. I'm due August 30, 2010.
My doctor put me on Prometrium ( Progesterone supplements).
The first 9 weeks were awful. I was so sick.
The Prometrium makes me sick and sleepy.
My oldest daughter, Lisa (age 12), would put me to bed every day at 1P, watch the little ones and let me sleep for two hours until it wore off.
We told no one about this. My husband knew, of course, but no one else was told.
We took every day one at a time.
At 8 weeks, I began spotting and hurting. I thought we were losing this one too,
but a sonogram showed a perfectly healthy 8 week baby with a strong heartbeat.
I had torn a place in the bottom of my uterus.
Almost two weeks later, at my first official OB checkup, I figured he was going to tell me I had ovarian cysts, or PCOS or worse..............
Instead, he did another sonogram and we listened to that strong little heartbeat once again.
He said, "Your ovaries are clear. You are producing progesterone on your own. You're fine, everything looks good. You can come off the Prometrium, trust me."
I didn't really take it all in until I was on my way home, and the full effect of his words sunk in.
I'm healed.
I'm completely healed.
Oh my goodness.
Dear Lord, what are you doing?
The overwhelming feeling of God's pressence, I cried all the way home.
No more pain, no more bleeding, no cysts, no problems,
A healthy baby, a strong heartbeat, a healed body.
I thought the door was closing on me. I thought I was going through pre-menopause.
Now here I am having a baby, and this may be my last or this may not be, only God knows.
God knows.
God is in control.
God is here.
God loves me.
God is love.
"I have loved you with an everlasting love." Jeremiah 33:3 (NIV)
Oh, how could we ever doubt God is real.
I do not understand why he has chosen to bless me with this priviledge. This sweet gift of motherhood, but I am so grateful, so thankful. I feel so blessed and priviledged to received this miracle of healthy baby and a whole and well body.
In all, Give God the Glory.
Happy Valentines's Day.
God loves you.
Amy
